Onward and Upward

I'm not sure how long I'll sit down and write this post tonight--hunkered down in a hotel room in Pismo Beach hiding from the rain. As I put these words down on, I wish I could say paper, the screen I can't help but think about the solitary state my life has assumed. The ties I've…

Remember to Remember

He rolled over in bed on top of his lover, reaching over to the bed stand and grabbed a syringe cap filled with used cottons and vitamin water. "Maybe we can just shoot vitamins instead of heroin," he said while mashing the cottons with the butt of the syringe. She grabbed her cap and did…

Every Minute of Everyday

Five years of early mornings, long days, and late nights. I am quite possibly the epitome of what defines the concept of the 99%. A struggling american citizen with no reprieve in sight, but trudging forth steadfast despite the constant adversity. That's what I enrolled in college for, to get away from the aimless state…

White Chalk

I parked somewhere near white chalk in Ocean Beach. The text message said, "Meet me at the pier at 3:30." I don't know where I was coming from, but I knew where I was headed. White chalk. I arrived at the pier, at my feet was an arrow in white chalk. I followed it. A…

Cassandra

I just deleted 1,000 words that were aimed at you, but had nothing to do with anyone but myself. Seems like such a cheat. I'll never forget that phone call the day you died. It was the most devastating event of my life. While it's so far away, I think this is the first time…

The Day I Tried to Live

I got busted for sales in 2009 at the peak of my addiction. Awaiting my return was the same chaos that I had left. The only difference was that I was healthier and had some time to detox. The message didn't make it to my head. I was waiting to get released and obsessively called my girlfriend--she was actually my fiance--for…